its me....

hi hi.. juz feel like blogging cuz feel so weird... hmmm.. at the moment im happy outside but not when i go home... it's like hell to me... *siGh* ok let's not mention bout the sad thing.. neway mum n dad went to sematan for camping... 'better' so tat no one scolds me! hmm... it's sad to be here i wish i could leave....

wel... last nite went to 99 wif my frens! it's so much better here cuz i can go club wif my very own frens.. unlike thai club n rum jungle... altho the situation is much more better than kch but then no frens no fun.. hehe! hopefully the next time i go, my frens wud be there as well! haha! hehehe next week im goin to kk lu... baby jordan's b'day... 1 year old! kekeke... misses him so much! gtg.. biez!

im home...

i juz got home last nite.. was kinda tired so did not post anything.. =D right after i got home tat was about 6 smtg.. i took bath n go out!! lolz.. came home was extremely tired.. so went to bed early! hehehe... well... overall... kl's trip was fun! release stress.. wasn't thinking of anything when i get there.. =DD great~!!

day 1: (22/4)
was stil in kch in the morning, then go wash hair before i headed to airport... after wash hair went to green height for breakfast.. suddenly 'ah girl' called telling me tat she's in the airport liau so i quickly finish my breakfast n go airport... my mum put me down then go home liau.. so left me n girl lo.. hehe!~!! check in our luggage... then go kia kia... very ti tu lo.. so we waited patiently inside the terminal hall... sickening!!~!! in the plane - both of us wanna sleep but we can't sleep! argh... >.<'' trying to close our eyes but cannot... fuh... tat's y i hate to travel!! (*siGH* next week needa sit gain... haiss) tata! reach kl... saw my cousin n tony... =) from airport we search for cab to go genting.. oo i rmb smtg.. the damn taxi driver tok cock! he lied to us saying tat cab cannot go up till genting's hotel.. saying 'tanah runtuh' bullshit~!! can only reach cable car.. crazy! hmm... at last also can go ba! stupid... when we reach, we checked in then headed to theme park... yeah!! ok played inside was fun fun fun! =D 1 thing i HATEEEEEE about genting.... i cannot get in casino... i tried to dress maturely but stil cannot get in... *siGh* eric, ah girl, tony n me cannot get in.. haha so kolien... tony can't go in cuz the police saw me.. then ask for 'our' ic... wahaha! wad to do... we've got ntg to do so buy sushi.. yeah!! nice oh... hehe..

day 2: (23/4)
check out in the morning cuz don wanna waste time.. then we all go down town... at bukit bintang de area.. we went to sunway lagoon! wah.. so fun! never go there before.. only go sunway piramid to shop! so fun! wahaha! go swimming! ooo i'm gonna revenge.. can rmb who push me far... hmmm... hahaha 'tony to the rescue!' wahaha!! it was so fun... hehehe.. next time go kl wanna go sunway lagoon gain.. hehe! but... my mum say im darker! shiat!! i hate to get dark cuz im dark! i bought the sun block but also no use ler... ooo im sick *yeah* at nite all of them went to red box... but i was sleeping... grrr... but well i went on 25/4 hehehe....

day 3: (24/4)
hmmm... oh today we went to times square... the guys go play but girls go shopping! kekeke... didn't buy anything much la cuz tis trip i juz wanna play =) after tat wad did we do ho! oh!! we went to the 'yi ta, pan ta de place (wholesale de place)!!' wahahaha... ah girl (mummy) bring all her kids + grandkidss along... went to the yi ta pan ta de place! haha! so stupid la.. wasted our time there doin ntg.. n it was damn damn hot! while we're waiting for eric n ronnie so we cin cai go anywhere lo.. hehehe.. haha ah ling was hak tiok by the yi ta pan ta... so funny! with her around all of us laugh out ass off! hahaha!! i cant really rmb wad we did liau la... hmm... oh... eric went back singapore... c-ing ah girl cry i also feel like crying... we're having our dinner then it's time to go liau... cannot tahan ar c her cry... then we go kia kia lo.. don wan her to cry.. we went to klcc.. wanted to go aquaria but close.. so go shopping lo!~ haha! yeah 1 more thing me, girl n tony 1 cab.. from klcc back to hotel only cost rm3.10 =P but ah san, 2 sau, ah ling n ronnie de is rm8... hmm... haha!~! it was stil early.. got ntg to do so went to coffee bean.. yum yum! ohh we went to coffee bean cuz i have gastric! needa take hot chocolate!~!! after coffee bean go back hotel sleep lo!

day 4: (25/4)
actually wanted to go aquaria gain cuz last nite close.. but then not in time.. so didn't go lo.. laalallaa... girl them in a hurry to go airport... hmmm... felt so weird without them around... not funny anymore... not many ppl anymore... so wad to do, me n tony went to red box! so fun ar!! wish i can go wif my frens.. so nice.. hehe.. hmm... wad did i do liau hor after tat.. cannot rmb... back to hotel.. sleep... at nite went to eat at the stalls behind our hotel... we ate 'ham!' haha... grilled fish... *yuMmy* fried smtg..... n smtg... lazy wanna mention!~ hmmm oh ya! i took the.. wad do u call tat ar.. the thing we had at waterfront... kinda like cigg but got fav de... duno wad is tat cal la! but i took strawberry flavour! hehe!! it wasn't tat ''nice'' tho... no more next time.. once is enuf.. kekeke... *tat's wad happen to u if u don wanna listen to ppl who had taken it before de advise XD soli lo my dear! haha!!*

day 5: (26/4)
another new day... today i went to aquaria... oo guess wad, i walkkkkkk from my hotel to klcc... ain't so far but tiring!! hehe.. reach klcc was sweating like pig... then had some root beer at a&w... so nice.. kch don haf a&w anymore... cacated! after drinking, we go search for aquaria... it's so far la.. we walk n walk n walk... finally reach... wah.. it's nice... 28 per person... reasonable price lo... hehe... taken lotsa pic inside.. gonna post it if possible! hehehe! too many things happen inside... duno where to start! all i know is the shark n stingray are big!! the stingray can cover me up la... hehe... today is wed nite hor... hahaha so i tot of goin clubbing... oo i went to thai club n guess wad... the guard stoppppp me!! fuCk*r... hmmm underage mer... sien n somemore i did not bring my iC!! then needa go back hotel take.. hmmm damn thing!! no choice but to go back hotel n take... only me n tony went.. so boring~ *yaWn* c-ing everyone dance wif their frens.. i miss my frens so much! grrrr... ok over-boring... called alvin... ask him to join me... guess wad! hehehe he managed to go find me =) we went to zouk but underage! arghh!! i heard zouk very nice... then went to orange.. it was close... went to rum jungle.. at last! im so scard tat i cant go in but luckily i can... haha... they ordered chivas but i love cola more =D took cola more than chivas! had fun there chit chatting wif alvin... then went back at 4 a.m!!

day 6: (27/4)
oh... the day i come back kch! n damn it cannot wake up!!! was supposed to go shoppin in the morning but guess wad.. i woke up at 11.30!! n we haf to go airport at 12.30.. + my things r not pack yet!! everything is stil everywhere... damn damn damn... spoil my shopping plan... hmmm.... had lunch there.. then rush to buy bak po for my dad b4 lunch... then go back hotel... check out... go airport... so im back kch! hmmm... miss kl days so much.... no one scold me... no one control me... do wadever i wan... hmmmm....

my day~

wo de zui ai - angela zhang

xiang yi chang meng
que xing bu guo lai
ling yi ge wo zai kan zhe wo
ta wen wo zhi bu zhi de wei ni fu chu cuo you
zhi yao yi xiang qi ni de wen rou
jiu hui rang wo kan bu qing chu
ni xiang zuo de ni

mei you shei qiang pou wo jian qiang
wo que dou ren de zhu
qing xing de gu du

ni yong yuan shi wo de zui ai
bu guan ai ni you duo nan
wo de xin zhi xiang shu yu ni
wu fa yu zhi de wei lai
ni shi zhao bao qi wo
que kan jian yuan fang ji mo
ai jiang hui ke fu yi qie zai wo xin zhong
ni yong yuan shi wo de zui ai
bu guan ai ni you duo nan
wo bu hui ting zhi ai ni
wo zhe ni wen re de shou
jiu suan ou er tou lu
ni de bu an he fang zong
wo zong shi xiang xin ni

xiang yi chang meng
que xing bu guo lai
ling yi ge ni zai kan zhe wo
ta wen wo yuan bu yuan yi gei ni geng duo zi you
zhi yao yi xiang qi ni de you chou
jiu hui rang wo kan bu qing chu
wo xiang zuo de wo

mei you shei qiang po wo jian qiang
wo que dou ren de zhu
meng li de gu du

ni yong yuan shi wo de zui ai
bu guan ai ni you duo nan
wo de xin zhi xiang shu yu ni
wu fa yu zhi de wei lai
ni shi zhao bao qi wo
que kan jian yuan fang ji mo
ai jiang hui ke fu yi qie zai wo xin zhong
ni yong yuan shi wo de zui ai
bu guan ai ni you duo nan
wo bu hui ting zhi ai ni
wo zhen ni wen re de shou
jiu suan ou er tou lu
ni de bu an he fang zong
wo zong shi xiang xin ni....

hmmm... very nice song huh.. hehehe i've been listening to tis song over n over again.. it's very meaningful oh... *sOb* after listening feel very sad...
oOo.. yeah everything i do is to release stress... ok let's not mention bout sadness anymore... =D well.. got lotsa fun juz now... hehe... tis morning after i clean myself (bath, brush teeth.. etc...) went out lu.. go buy colgate.. body shampoo... etc... hehehe... wanna have my own things ready ma.. but oopss i forgot to buy battery!! >.<'' the important de thing i did not buy... sien ler!! i need it for my disc man ar!! geram... hopefully tomorrow morning i can get it lo if not in the plane cannot listen ar... *sickening* but nvm la.. hmm wad to do... lalala... don feel like crapping so much today... gonna stop blogging for dayssssss... =P

gOOdbYe mY lOveR, gOOdbYe mY fRienD~

"Goodbye My Lover"

Did I disappoint you or let you down?
Should I be feeling guilty or let the judges frown?
'Cause I saw the end before we'd begun,
Yes I saw you were blinded and I knew I had won.
So I took what's mine by eternal right.
Took your soul out into the night.
It may be over but it won't stop there,
I am here for you if you'd only care.
You touched my heart you touched my soul.
You changed my life and all my goals.
And love is blind and that I knew when,
My heart was blinded by you.
I've kissed your lips and held your hand.
Shared your dreams and shared your bed.
I know you well, I know your smell.
I've been addicted to you.

[x2]
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I am a dreamer and when i wake,
You can't break my spirit - it's my dreams you take.
And as you move on, remember me,
Remember us and all we used to be
I've seen you cry, I've seen you smile.
I've watched you sleeping for a while.
I'd be the father of your child.
I'd spend a lifetime with you.
I know your fears and you know mine.
We've had our doubts but now we're fine,
And I love you, I swear that's true.
I cannot live without you.

[x2]
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

And I still hold your hand in mine.
In mine when I'm asleep.
And I will bare my soul in time,
When I'm kneeling at your feet.
Goodbye my lover.
Goodbye my friend.
You have been the one.
You have been the one for me.

I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.
I'm so hollow, baby, I'm so hollow.
I'm so, I'm so, I'm so hollow.

alalalalla!! good morning all~ hehehe say hello the a new day! hmmm... after a good cry last nite + someone new who lectures me... hehehe thanks to su ying!! =) so i've overcome all my sadness n emptyness... yeah.. we must look further not just look beside us... life must go on no matter wad happen... there ain't no one who can ruin one's life... a real biggggg lesson for me to learn... hmmm... well.. because of wad's happening around me nowadays, i've not been sleeping properly ever since.. thanks to those who hurts me... *siGh* but after so many lectures i've awake!
hmmm the tok last nite was great because *tat* person manage to stop me from crying.. i was crying when im on the phone wif su ying.. after we hang up.. tears stil roll down my cheek... then 'tat' person cal me n i was freezed.. duno who izit.. after telling me his name... then i know who is he.. hmmm... of cuz i wouldn't cry when im on the phone wif someone whom i've met once.. rite... tis su ying ar.. 'cho u cho bo de bo' hahaha!! oOoo today i wake up early! 9a.m~!! tried to sleep gain but cannot... haha.. so wake up n continue packing my stuff!! =P after half way tru here i m! hehehe continue tonite la... now so lazy kekeke!! chaOss...

shOppinG dAy...

yup.. today is shopping day! kekeke... tis afternoon i wanted to ask my mum to accompany me go hock lee... (excuse me... i go hock lee n my purpose was to buy hair shampoo.... not being ah lienss!! hehehe =D *u know who im toking to when u c tis! hahaaha) hmmm but she don wan to follow.. sien liau! luckily i haf sing yee... i called her n she say she's free~!! yeah!! so i go pick her up lo =D we went shopping together! i was looking for shampoo... needa bring on sat ma! hehehe... before we go 'beau de house' the place where i bought my shampoo, we went to kia kia at ground floor... n i got a new top! hehehe... for me to wear when i go 'play' haha!! sing yee say it is nice so i bought it~!! yeah... i lurv it lots! kekeke~!! after tat i go buy shampoo... lalala... rmb my last post?? don go shopping! haha!! spend a lot~!! hmmm... sing yee ask me to save up some $$ to be spend when i go travel... *yeah... better listen to her!* hehehe... ok i've got limit when i spend.. shampoo 66... top 40.90.... 106.90 hmmm... ok stop spending for today! =PP
after hock lee, we went to memories for some drink... oh... no promotion for today.. hmmm nvm..haha~!! we've got no where to go so i tot of burning some cd for myself~ then we went to chong lin to buy some empty disc... hehe! finally i got it!! lalala... all new songs... thanks to sing yee!! my best fren ever.. not forgetting lene, jong, kritsy n Then! =)

oHhHhh... tis morning my mum ask me whether i oledi tel my dad tat im goin travelling tis sat.. hmmm i did not tel him ar!! haahha.. then i say i'll tel him tonite.. n i oledi say.... he was shocked... =D oops sorry... shud haf tel him earlier! kakaka... but he did not scold me la... then he say go wif who... go how many days... need him gif me how much cash... so n so... then ask me wad i intend to do there... hehehe of cuz play play play!! forget the past!!! forget everything tat make me upset!! FORGET EVERYTHING SAD!!! hehehe... not forgetting shOppInG!! =DD lalala... he did not scold me! soo happy!!! hehehe... im very excited oh now!! cant wait liau... hehehe... release stress... i must listen to wad my fren say, " don care bout wad the others do n say, care bout urself... as long as ur happy n u tink ur not doin anything wrong.. go on wif ur happy life... " yup! i 100% agree wif tat!! i love u all!!! hehehe! *MUAKSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS*

borEd...

as usual.. im at home.. got ntg to do... *siGh* so sien lar... wait til ti tu bang also grow lo... wei, let's tok bout me... hmmm don know y im addicted to certain songs..

>> zhang hui mei - wo yao kuai le (guess maybe is because im not 'kuai le' right now.... damn broken heart in every single way... love life... sux... friendship.... no idea bout it.... but not my old frens which remain the best in my life! they know who they r... lene... kok... jong.. kristy.. Then.... best of all!! i love u guys so much.... )

>> lee sheng jie & lin long xuan - ni na mo ai ta (maybe it's related to my love life... blur bout it.. but now im getting fine oledi... trying to surrender in love life until i meet my special one....)

>> puff daddy & faith - i'll be missing u (guess i'll stil be missing u.... love remains forever juz tat ur look will slowly fade away.... *sniFf*)

>> jolin - ni hai ai wo ma ( hmmm from the title it's obvious tat.. every human do wonder... )

zhang hui mei - wo yao kuai le

you bei ai shang le yi bian
wu suo wei
dang zuo cheng zhang
gang gang zou kai de ren
yan hai dian zhe
wei dao que dan le

wo bing bu shi tian sheng ai ji mo
que bi ren he ren dou duo
jiu suan ba shi jie gei wo
wo hai shi yi wu suo you

wo yao kuai le
wo yao neng shui de an wen
you xie ren
bu bao le cai wen nuan
li kai le cai bu hen
wo zao ying gai ge she

wo yao kuai le
na pa xiao de zai da sheng
xin bu shi re de
quan dou shi jia de
zhi you yan lei shi zhen de

ba cong qian xiang le yi bian
xie xie le
shang wo de ren
xiang zuo le guan de ren
mei zhong yu sheng
ting le dou bu leng

wo bing bu shi tian sheng ai ji mo
que bi ren he ren dou duo
jiu suan ba shi jie gei wo
wo hai shi yi wu suo you

wo yao kuai le
wo yao neng shui de an wen
you xie ren
bu bao le cai wen nuan
li kai le cai bu hen
wo zao ying gai ge she

wo yao kuai le
na pa xiao de zai da sheng
xin bu shi re de
quan dou shi jia de
zhi you yan lei shi zhen de

wo yao kuai le
wo yao neng shui de an wen
you xie ren
bu bao le cai wen nuan
li kai le cai bu hen
wo zao ying gai ge she

wo yao kuai le
na pa xiao de zai da sheng
xin bu shi re de
quan dou shi jia de
wo de jue ding shi dui de

=D

harlow... lalala.. juz got back from petanak!!~!! hehehe.. today.. hmm kinda upset because of certain things... ='( but it's ok la..

went for movie wif sharon, sharon's bf, su ying n su ying's bf.. lalala! ok i know im single.. so wad.. i can stil hang out wif them ma... hmmm... we watch water spirit.. not really scary ler.. haha! tat su ying scream so loud.. as wad sharon say she owez scream.. haha n she sit beside me somemore.. i was scared by her!! su ying ar!! hahaha!! after watch movie went to petanak.. all of them eat except me... im on diet ba! oh my god!! now then i know how sharon look like when she laugh non stop n tears roll down her cheek!! haha!! =DD yeah... im so excited... 2 more days!! =P

hehe.. k liau la.. got ntg to say liau.. bb~

o.O

last nite i sleep very early... bout 11 lidat... but i cant sleep!! hmm... so roll here n there... finally slept but duno wad time... then i wake up at 8!! i tired to sleep gain but i cant... hmmm... guess smtg is very wrong wif me... i got flu gain!! shiat!! i've got ntg to say liau...

let me post some 'joke' =D i got it from mag... hehehe...

> Whoever first said that ''A dog is man's best friend'' had never seen a pussy before....

> Why is breast milk good for health?
Because it is great for blood circulation, provides heat, is refreshing and comes in attractive
container.

> A Japanese girl accidentally lets out a big fartt after making love.
She said, ''Aww, so sorry.. excuse me please, front hole so happy, back hole laugh out loud!''

> A man is in a hotel. He wants to ask the clerk a question. As he turns to go to the front desk, he accidentally bumps into a woman beside him and as he does, his elbow goes into her breast. They are both startled and he says, "ma'am, if your heart is as soft as your breast, i know you'll forgive me. "she replies, "If your penis is as hard as ur elbow, im in room 1221".

> Why is 69 position is called the 'smokers position?'
Because while she is smoking the cigar, he is cleaning the ashtray!

> Man 1 : My wife is obsessed with cars. While asleep, she holds my bird and say 1st gear... 2nd gear...
Man 2 : My wife is worst, she puts my bird inside her and say 'Full Tank pls!'

> An old man married a young girl. On wedding night he show five fingers to his wife.
Young girl : Ooh... darling! 5 times?
Old man : No dear, choose which one u prefer....

> Woman gave birth to six babies and seeing this she got out of hospital bed and slapped her husband and shouted, " I told u not to do doggy style!"

> A prostitude goes to deposit a $100 bill in a bank. The teller say, "sorry madam, the note is fake". "Oh no!" exclaimed the prostitude, "i have been raped!!"

hehehe!! enuf la... these r the ones i find funny! enjoy~

headache... *sOb*

oh man... headache!! hmm.. mummy say maybe cuz 'juak tiok' but i say it's because i stay at home too long! kekeke!! but then my headache siaw siaw de.. come n go... alien ba! wahaha!! oooo im so excited... =D goin travelling *yeah!!* jordan's b'day comin soon also... hehe.. go travel again!! hehehe!! oh ya tis afternoon i close my bsn account n open a new acc at public bank... hmmm... im old enuf to do all tis things myself so i went alone.. *siGh* tat is wad happen to me when im 'older'... lalaala~ hehehe got advantage also la.. i get to do shopping!! i bought a new spaghetti strip... i bought necklace + braclet + ear rings + eye shadow + eye liner (pencel).. gonna post it... kekeke!!

hmmm.... never go shopping!! hahaha know y?? spend a lot! shirt = 29.90 (reasonable), necklace = 29.90 - % 18.00, braclet = 39.90 - % 22.00, ear ring = 35.00 - % 20.00, eye shadow = 9.90, lastly pencel = 3.90... hmm overall... 103.70... hehehe... the disadvantage of shopping!! lalalaa!!bought accessories cuz got discount ba! =D

hehehe.. these r the things i bought... but....

tis is the one i love most!! hehehe!!

me being a driver... wadever!!~

oh... my aunty say y m i a driver now.. hmmm wad to do.. im so free.. got ntg to do.. so i go n pick my bro back from tuition lo.. luckily my mum didn't ask me send him to tuition cuz it's 8a.m! n im stil having a good sleep kekeke!
oh ya.. remember 2 nites ago i sneak out (not really sneak out!! lol) then last nite my mum grab me n ''throw'' me in bed... hehehe.. don wan me to go out the whole nite.. wans me to accompany her *gegege* me trying to be good girl so listen to her lo.. wad to do.. if not i cannot go out ar... =P then she say she wanna sleep wif me... hmmm tis is very common ok! hehehe she often sleep wif me de la actually juz tat i don wan.. but then last nite.. ok la.. since so long she didn't sleep wif me.. cuddle cuddle.. haha!! wad i don like about sleeping wif her is tat she like (looovveessss) to hug me n disturb me >.<'' but neway.. she's my mum ma.. =) tho i owez make her angry, mad, sad + disappointed + lotsss more.. she stil love me so much!! luv ya!! (haha every human will say like tis when their moods r good! not when they got grounded o scolded!) m i right?? so tat's me! wahaha.. but stil deep in my heart.. no one can replace my mum's love!!

sickening day...

i hate today.. duno y.. hmm.. it's like hell for me today!! was waken up by my bro besause mummy ask so! >=( so mad... but it's also my fault la.. who ask me to ''sneak'' out last nite... damn.. it's not sneak out la actually.. i often go out in the middle of the nite wif ah kaw.. we only go to the park near our huz ba.. hmm.. arghh... she never scold me o anything BUT last nite she called!! for the 1st time.. everytime i go out at nite 2 smtg lidat she never call me but last nite she called ='( sien~!! maybe because it's not ah kaw who pick me out gua... tat's y she suddenly 'sense' tat im goin out... hmm.. ok la forget bout tis...

juz now on the way bringing my lil bro to sch, he ask me.. do u know mummy's gonna go 'normah' for medical check up?? i was blur... hmm she didn't tel me ler.. maybe cuz she's angry at me o smtg but she did not scold me o anthing... weird.. then my lil bro suddenly say.. maybe she needa over nite there.. i was stunned!! wth?? for wad??? hmm.. he also duno.. after sending him off.. went to renew my ic... damn i was late.. it's lunch time.. so i needa wait.. while waiting i went to king centre to haf some drink... waited for kok to go cuz she's having class at 2... ok lo wait wait wait.. hmm kok ar.. u put me aeroplane.. after tat i chao lo.. back to the renew ic de place..

came home right after i renew my ic... my mum's not at home.. tried to cal her but she left her hp at home... then i call my dad.. cannot get tru... how can i find my parents... *siGh* tat's y im feelin so stressful right now.... lotsa things happen to me tat makes me don feel like stayin any longer here... everything seems like getting dull.... sObs.. i need a shoulder to cry on... ='(


* Trying to forget someone you love is like trying to remember someone you never knew.. it hurts..*

happy nite!!

harlow... i juz got back from fren's party~ it was great lo.. they rented an apartment to celebrate b'day.. hehe! then i've got ntg to do so i watch dvd.. all scary scary de movie! one is house of wax.. so scary ar!! finish liau watch the haunting.. also very scary but very nice to watch =) had lotsa fun there.. so fun la rent apartment to celebrate b'day.. next time i also wanna do it tat way lo.. no needa clean up.. how nice! keke!!

hmm.. ntg special happen today.. tis afternoon went out wif a fren.. went to point one at ban hock road.. while waiting for my fren, some idiotic guy who was sitting infront of me (his back is facing me!) n he turn his chair to sit side way.. grrrr!! he's looking at me! wtf!! somemore hold his hp n wave wave at me.. !! damn!! i don gif a f*ck!! so i pretend did not c his action.. hmm.. then he cal 'xiao jie' but i don wanna hiu him.. sheesh! annoying!! >.<'' somemore 7 early 8 early drink beers! *yuCk*!! wanna drink go other place drink la~!! hmm.. after tat faster faster leave tat place~
*siGh* i went to kenyalang to look for 'pop teen' DEC de!! shiat!! cannot find.. i lost my fren's mag.. ='( i cannot find it back.. i did not take it ler.. hmm.. i tink i left it at mjc but it's lost!! so wad to do... i have to replace it!! so search at saberkas cuz kenyalang cannot find.. cannot find also... ='( *sOb* arghhh i give up!! don wanna find anymore.. after tat got no place to go.. go wash hair =P kekeke!!

finish wash hair go back home then get ready to go party! tat's aLL~!!~
*haPPy aNNiveRsaRy* with love...

lucky me!

ohh.. luckily my mum allow me to go su ying's party.. not hers la.. her boyfren.. kekeke.. i juz wake up ar.. hmm weird la my mum these few days did not wake me up.. as usual she'll wake me up '7 early 8 early' but hmm now she changed.. hopefully!! kekeek.. when i was walking down the stairs i keep tinking wad to say.. how to tel.. so i say i wanna go attend a party tonite.. hehehe she look at me but didn't say anything.. mening tat i can go lu!! yeah!! she allow~!!~!! hehehe im scare she don let me go out cuz i've been goin out everyday!! day n nite.. but she did not scold me oh!! =D

sleepy day...

today kinda tired to club so came home earlier... kekeke.. also listen to my daddy n mummy's advise la.. asking me not to come home too late.. good girl oh me.. =)

hehe... juz now went to travillion lunch box having our dinner + supper!! i ate cream of chicken with garlic bread.. yummy!! so nice oh.. goin back there gain next time.. it was so cold there!! although it's an open air shop without air con but suddenly *sneeze!!* shiat... my flu came back!! it's like so weird la.. suddenly got terrible flu! hmm.. guess im very weak lo.. my nose was block n i can't even breath tru my nose! damn flu... after sometime better liau.. c how weird izit!! stupid weather.. tat's wad fabian say! haha! after lunch box.. went to point one (travillion) wah.. so many ppl go mc.. many friends around.. i saw ah lik! haha so long didn't c him.. saw nick as well.. me n my friend was planning to go 99 so we didn't decide to go mc cuz the songs there not so nice..
after tat bout 11.30 lidat we went over th 99... juz right after i enter 99, the song was so great tat all of us can't wait to dance! *yeah baby!!* the song was hot!! we dance non stop!! hoh! everyone was sweating like taking bath!! it was so crowded but it's nice! the song very nice oh!! =D ok it's getting hotter n hotter.. can't really stand.. somemore few 'biG siZe' guys was standing behind me dancing like crazy.. the tummy keep on bounching n hit me.. hmm.. oops... so i went futher.. don wanna stand so close to them.. sing yee was hot!! haha! she dance so sexy-ly!! =P meli's shuffle also very nice oh! kekeeke!! then after a while sharon n su ying left.. oOoo no more sexy sharon n funny su ying! but nvm stil got fabian n maria.. heheehe fabian wanna slim down!! me also!! haha tats y we dance hard-ly!! ahahaa!! to lose weight ba! right fabian! then bout 12.30 lidat fabian left.. hmm... left me, meli n sing yee + few frens.. so tired liau + hot! really cannot tahan liau.. me n meli left.. went to the opposite kopitiam have some drink.. after tat... here i m.. come home! very sleepy liau.. hehe! chaos! *today's routine!!*

*oh ya!! tis afternoon went to satok.. yeah finally bear bee get to choose his sun glass!! so happy oh.. he love it so much!! while waiting for him i went to Then's saloon to have a hair wash.. hmmm so nice no more messy hair! haha! then she make my hair like.. erm into some very 'lung cung' style.. but i don wan.. so no choice but to wash again! =P sorry oh Then.. don angry la... next time got dinner make tat kinda hair style ok la.. but not when i wanna go club.. hehe cuz if i go club wif tat kinda hair.. ppl tot i juz came back from a dinner o smtg!! =P hehee!! don wanna crap too much liau! bb!

argh....

good morning.. *yaWn* i was sleeping so so nice not until moi moi cal me.... zzZzz i can't even recognise her voice i ask her ''who r u''.. haha! then she say moi moi but i stil blur blur =P she tel me she wanna check out liau... then i can't rmb wad she say.. i also duno wad i say.. =P now then i remember i said go lunch together! haha~ i went to sleep again ba~!! kekeke!!

phew.. thank god my body not painful!! hehehe but my leg kinda pain la.. no more gastric =) no more painful everywhere only leg.. hmm but nvm lo.. today hafta wear shoe not heels!

k liau needa go get ready... goin out lu.. bye bye..

fun oh!!

gosh... i juz got my ass back home.. tonite was fun!! fun fun better than last week.. stil i went to mc wif sing yee + Then + her frens... kekeeke!! it's a crazy nite la! we dance like mad =D everything was so so great but now *gRrrRrrr* my leg hurts!! i can hardly walk... plz no pain tomolo... o else i'll surely cant walk.. kekeke...

oh no.... tis is wad my dad say when he saw me juz now...

2.20a.m
dad: (while walking up the staircase) u juz got back??
me: ( juz came out from the toilet) yup...
dad: next time come back earlier... (in a low tone)
me: phew... ntg happen.. wakakaaka!! but i say back... wad for come back early...
dad: walk straight into his room

n here i m now!! hehehee!!

hmm b4 go mc.. was out wif meli, sharon n su ying.. heheehe we went to country cafe.. ooo at 1st we conquer the whole 2nd floor... do everything we wan... we sing.. we play pool... we drink.. we dance... everything.. it's like our home not until ... some idiotic who came up... n shit.. one of them is sharon's dad's fren... n he's damn annoying~!! keep comin to our place... giving us 2 cans of beer but no thanks! -rejected- wahahaa!! it was fun to hang around wif them... =) gonna make it our weekly routine... kekeke hopefully my mum n sharon's mum allow oh... gtg now.. bye... ong ong lu... (^oo^)

oh no.. i've got flu...

*snEezE* oh man.. flu... so hard to breath.. hmm.. got infected by my lil jordan.. mis him so much oh.. he's back to kk juz now... but i'll be seeing him soon! im goin to kk *yeah* on his b'day which is 2 weeks from now =P neway.. went to airport to pick up moi moi at 1 smtg.. kekeke n i saw someone wahaahaha!! she's wearing so short wanna show us her 'pig leg' =P *toUchwOoD!!* hmm but lucky she did not spoil my mood =) after tat me n moi moi went to buy cake.. she wanna buy for jb cuz it's jb's b'day today! moi moi is jb de gf oh.. hehe.. wah.. so chun we meet tiok jb in cake house.. hahaaha so i drag him along wif us =P after buying the cake, we went to check in harbour view hotel... the room is so small! but enuf for the 2 of them la.. hehehe.. everything is done... lunch time!! we went to memories n my meli dearie went as well.. after tat i follow meli go church..

it was hot when we reach the church.. we were looking for sharon.. tata.. we found her.. then erm.. meli n sharon went to receive ..... i forgot how to say.. but neway the main point is i was hurt!!! by *someone* saying im not a christian don follow la!! grrrr!!! izit very wrong to follow huh!! but nvm sometimes we juz don hafta be angry on the others action... be urself... get over it as soon as possible... =D oh ya.. i saw alvin's brother n his dad.. kekeke.. saw kinda many ppl also la..

finish - send meli home after church... came home n sleep! tata.. here i m.. after a good nite sleep! =) *bein too loso.. better off now~ bye*

stay home sickness!!

shit la... im so so so uncomfortable when im at home.. even at my aunty's place... last nite my mum went out wif my aunty.. i feel so itchy everywhere cuz my mind keeps running.. i wan to go out... i wan to go out... somemore meli called n ask me go petanak... oh... i needa look after jordan... he 'sticks' to me!!! >=( guess i cannot stand staying at home.. i HAVE to go out.. if not i wont sleep well.. hmmm but i went out a while la in my pj! hahaha!~!! for like 10 mins... haiss... nvm la better than ntg!

at 4a.m jordan was crying.. he wans milk so ok i get up n make him his milk.. i look at the bed.. hmm 2 person are missing... my aunty n my mum!! crazy man!! 4a.m stil haven get their ass back yet??? i called n ask...they say oh on the way home on the way home so i don bother lo.. continue sleeping... when i get up in the morning both of them r stil sleeping.. haha guess they really tired liau.. hmm the got back at 5a.m... heheehe meaning to say.. i also can get back home tat ''early'' lo! =P

i'll be missing you - puff daddy

Intro: puff daddy

Every day I wake up
I hope I’m dreamin
I can’t believe this shit
Can’t believe you ain’t here
Sometimes it’s just hard for a nigga to wake up
It’s hard to just keep goin
It’s like I feel empty inside without you bein here
I would do anything man, to bring you back
I’d give all this shit, shit the whole knot
I saw your son today
He look just like you
You was the greatest
You’ll always be the greatest
I miss you big
Can’t wait til that day, when I see your face again
I can’t wait til that day, when I see your face again...

Yeah... this right here (tell me why)
Goes out, to everyone, that has lost someone
That they truly loved (c’mon, check it out)

Verse one: puff daddy

Seems like yesterday we used to rock the show
I laced the track, you locked the flow
So far from hangin on the block for dough
Notorious, they got to know that
Life ain’t always what it seem to be (uh-uh)
Words can’t express what you mean to me
Even though you’re gone, we still a team
Through your family, I’ll fulfill your dream (that’s right)
In the future, can’t wait to see
If you open up the gates for me
Reminisce some time, the night they took my friend (uh-huh)
Try to black it out, but it plays again
When it’s real, feelings hard to conceal
Can’t imagine all the pain I feel
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living your life, after death

Chorus: faith evans

Every step I take, every move I make
Every single day, every time I pray
I’ll be missing you
Thinkin of the day, when you went away
What a life to take, what a bond to break
I’ll be missing you

[puff] I miss you big

Verse two: puff daddy

It’s kinda hard with you not around (yeah)
Know you in heaven smilin down (eheh)
Watchin us while we pray for you
Every day we pray for you
Til the day we meet again
In my heart is where I’ll keep you friend
Memories give me the strength I need (uh-huh) to proceed
Strength I need to believe
My thoughts big I just can’t define (can’t define)
Wish I could turn back the hands of time
Us in the 6, shop for new clothes and kicks
You and me taking flicks
Makin hits, stages they receive you on
I still can’t believe you’re gone (can’t believe you’re gone)
Give anything to hear half your breath (half your breath)
I know you still living you’re life, after death

Chorus

[faith evans] somebody tell me why

Interlude: faith evans

On that morning
When this life is over
I know
I’ll see your face

Outro: 112

Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
Every night I pray, every step I take
[puff] every day that passes
Every move I make, every single day
[puff] is a day that I get closer
[puff] to seeing you again
Every night I pray, every step I take
[puff] we miss you big... and we won’t stop
Every move I make, every single day
[puff] cause we can’t stop... that’s right
Every night I pray, every step I take
Every move I make, every single day
[puff] we miss you big
*music fades out*

fal sick lo... *sOb..*

im feeling sick... *gOsh...* hmm.. i did not eat anything wrong ler... but how com dizzy.. vomit... tummy ache... argh.. hmm... too tired to update myself liau.. needa rest.. -bye-

boRinG~!!

im so boring!!~ *siGh* while waiting for meli to come pick me might as well post smtg here... hmm.. but i've got ntg to write ler... poem shud do =D

When I touched your hand
I thought I touched flowers
And I need to understand
Why a moment without you... is like hours

I kissed your tears
I touched your lips
Oh, my dear,
You give me the power of missing you
Even if you walk away- two steps

Every time I pray
Wishing you will stay
Waiting for you every day
To live with you away

I feel the pain- if you sigh
With you, love will never die
I will be yours and you will be mine
Every day and every time 

losT!! gosh..

oh gosh!! u know everyday when i wake up the 1st thing i'll be touching is my phone! yes my phone!! but tis morning, i couldn't find my phone.. so i tot it was in my bag i couldn't find it as well.. *sweat* i keep looking around but i couldn't find it... ='( gRrRrr scary!!! i quickly run downstairs to search for it.. i grab my huz phone n cal my hp... **ding ding ding.. wei.. wo de bao bei.....** the song goes on.. *phew* it was charged downstair by someone.. whom i duno who but im pretty sure tat it wasn't myself!! kekekeeke but then i tink i know who la.. thanks dear! actually i left my phone somewhere else which is not in my huz.. haahaha n he bring it back! =P so dumb dumb de me.. hahaha! so i found my hp n special thanks to bearbee!! =)

neway gtg soon... needa go do smtg liau.. bb!!

crazy me!!

herlow... right now im at ting's huz.. goin to his party later on.. heheehez hope he like the pressie i buy for him.. gonna post it after he open.. let u guys c whether it's nice o not... tata.. gtg soon.. byez... *mUakSsSs*

oh shit.. i juz remember tat i hafta show my aunty the invitation card tat i create for love n jor but of forgot *mAn* wad shud i do know *gRrRr* hmmm nvm la... guess there's ntg i can do...

*hmm feel so excited to go his place* kekeke... i tink im stil in love wif u.. ohhh... hahaha! ok better stop now i tink im crazy! haha

terrible nite...

gosh! my neck really hurts like mad!! can't stand the pain... ='( smtg terrible happen days ago n somehow i hurt my neck... sOb soB.. i can't really move n also can't really use my strength to turn my neck around... even look up n down! ='( i can't sleep last nite... argh.. cuz i can't turn around! but wad to do.. tis is all i get for doin smtg bad~!!~!!

wahahaa~!! im back !~!!

oh my god... everything is juz so funny!! actually i was supposed to be at my aunty's house BUT one funny thing happened to my mum tat we had to rush home...
here it goes

aunty : mich, take of jordan pampers.. he's gonna bath soon
mich : ok...
taking off jordan's pampers while my mum was carrying him..
chit chat chit chat...
suddenly.. sH*t!!!!!!!!

mum : wad's tat??
me + aunty : wahahaahaha!! oh my god.. jordan shit... on her!!!

conclution... when u wanna do smtg, owez do it as soon as possible.. if not u'll c wad will happen next... =)

baby jordan...

harlow.. im bz nowadays cuz baby jordan came back here.. hehehe he's stil so cute! n guess wad.. stil the same.. he wans me so much! kekeke... one thing naughty bout him is he's so naughty.. especially at nite.. man i cant even sleep! so tired liau.. gtg soon bye!!! needa play wif baby jordan!!

miserable life...

y m i like tis... i owez find something out to quarrel.. it's juz not the way i wan it to be.. somehow too many things make me dont tink tat way.. *siGh* it's juz so so dumb of me to get over someone cuz i stil cant! arghhh.... meaningless cuz i don feel like wanting everything to be .... i'm juz miserable~!!~



Don't cry because it's over... Smile because it happened..

Love u deeper than the deepest sea,
highest than the highest sky....



I miss you
And I'm sorry
For whats going on
Never thought things
Would go so badly wrong

Can't quite accept it
The fact were not together
Because when you held me
And said "I love you"
I thought you meant forvever

Apologizies wont do now
Not now we've fell apart
I pretended it didn't hurt at first
But now it's tearing at my heart

Nothings quite the same
Now that your not here
I cant quite get through the days
Without shedding a few tears

Not sure if I can go back
The way I once came
Because if we tried to make it work
Would things never be the same?

Would we argue a little more?
Care a little less?
With the scars on my body
I'd never be able to undress

I'm now too ashamed
Of the things I've done
Far too hurt you didn't notice
All that was going on

Tried to make it through
Tried to get to you
And now that it's all over
I just don't know what to do

Too far to hear my words
Too far for us to see
Who would of thought?
We where never meant to be

I'm so sorry i had to do this
I never wanted to say goodbye
I promise you I still care
and feel for you inside

You know I love you so much
But you're too far for me to see
I know I can get through this though
If I just remember to breathe...

lucky~!!

well... i juz got back from mc n i juz received a message from my dearie.. ''mc sapu ar!!'' then i was tinkin.. oh ok.. we're lucky!! kekeke... hmm toking bout tonite.. i was kinda boring, (cuz of the situation) but when they plays ''hotter'' song.. it's time to dance! mc is so hot compare to 99.. i was wiping my sweat all the time! not my type (place) not so fun.. but well, stil continues dancing when suddenly ''POP'' some ppl whom i don wish to c appear! haiya.. tat kinda face stay at home la! sheesh! spoil my mood only.. but well.. who cares rite.. life goes on.. whoever it is juz stay away from my sight!! f*uking g**L!!~ lalaala~!!~ <>

<> get to c so many old frens.. all of them r so different! haha.. hmm i stil remains the same.. m i not??!!? yeah i stil do.. stil the same old brand new me! tat's stil me! meshell.. yeah!~ haha.. im so crazy... yeah n 1 more good news is.. b4 goin to mc we went for a drink in lunch box.. actually we're consider lucky cuz me n my friends ordered soft drink.. n there r ants(actually only an ant) in our drink.. so we told the waiter n guess wad he gave us!! ice creams! hehehe.. well thanks to the ant n we get ice cream for free.. neway, ants r good for us.. like wad they say.. haha! i duno bout it la but we stil got ice cream.. with strawberry syrup! yummy!!

before go mc, i was attending my grandpa's birthday 'gathering' at his place.. ntg much happen but get to meet all my relatives.. woo.. everyone changed.. o shud i say my grandpa increase his grand daughter n grandsons! wahahaha.. meaning to say more kids in the huz! but the sad thing is.. when u get to c all the kids growing up so soon means im becoming older!! =( wad a good 'che che' / 'ee ee'... hmmm yeah yeah i admit tat im old too.. but hey 19 ain't tat old.. rite? kekeke...

tata!!~!! *deep down in my heart.. i miss u a lot!! =) *

fun nite!!

it was a fun nite.. hehe.. juz got back from 99... wow!! dance whole nite... drink... cigg.. everything went so smoothly.. no calls... no goverment... no nothing at all! everything went perfectly! =) haha toking bout 99.. every week go there surely u get to c 'weird' dancing! haha! the funniest one was todays! there's tis guy who is kinda big size n he dance like 70's! wahahaha!!!! rasa 'elvis'!! he dance really 'cool' n he's conquering the whole place!! when he dance, he almost knock everyone! his hand swing till damn high n he omos knock meli.. meli is small n he is BIG!! hahaha really can't stop myself + my frens especially su yin from laughing! wahahaha! we really cant stop laughing man!! he's dancing like mad! swinging his hand around.. dancin like 'exercising!' wahahaha! till now i stil remember the way he dance! oh my god! really cannot tahan! one more great thing.. there's a really cute guy sitting next to su yin! woohoo! he's so so cute man!!! =P naik gila liau me! kekeke! but it's true he's so cute tat 'most' of our eyes r looking at him.. kekeke... he 'cheers' wif su yin.. grrr but he did it to me also.. once! =D ok.. i tink i better not mention bout him anymore.. like as if im so into him.. hehehe.. no guys allow!! *bluek!* oh ya! n there's another one dancing like mad who sits behind su yin.. he's a black man! wai seh.. so man oh! kekekeke...

hmm... well u know dance too long our legs needa get some rest rite.. ok so i actually sit.. n there's tis stupid idiotic asshole bastard who tries to get near me... wad the hell... he tries to hold me! *yuCk!!* get lose man! as soon as i feel him trying to hold my waist i jumped down from the chair n look at him! then i move to my fren n... continue dancing! haha im so crazy.. even tho im very very tired but i stil continues dancing.. well.. i RATHER dance than letting tat guy touch me.. im so not tat kinda gurl who will simply let some stranger come near me! noway! unlike some 'bitch' who is trying to hook all the guys in 99.. meli, sing yee u 2 know who rite! hahaha! the 'keh bo mother' wahahaha! but it's true.. tat girl r bringing around her chickenss for ppl to fuck! meli over heard wad they say.. guess wad they were toking about...

chicken (girl) : u mau 1 demi 1 kah??
ckicky (guy) : tidak saya mau 2 demi 2...
me + meli : gross!!! they're actually chicken!!!! the mother chicken is a chinese n the chicks r lakias! so all of them r chicken!!! yewwww.... hahaha!

meli.. we dance in a proper way not like some other chicken! yeah!!! =)

nite.... happy day! =)

a great + meaningful story!

A student asks a teacher, "What is love?" The
teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go
to the paddy field and choose the biggest paddy
and come back.
But the rule is: you can go through them only once
and cannot turn back to pick."
The student went to the field, go thru first row, he
saw one big paddy, but he wonders.... may be
there is a bigger one later.
Then he saw another bigger one... but may be
there is a even bigger one waiting for him.
Later, when he finished more than half of the
paddy
field, he start to realize that the paddy is not as
big
as the previous one he saw, he know he has
missed the biggest one, and he regretted!!!!
So, he ended up went back to the teacher with
empty hand. The teacher told him, "...this is
love... you keep looking for a better one, but when
later you realize, you have already miss the
person...."
"What is marriage then?" the student asked. The
teacher said, "in order to answer your question, go
to the corn field and choose the biggest corn and
come back.
But the rule is: you can go through them only once
and cannot turn back to pick."
The student went to the cornfield, this time he is
careful not to repeat the previous mistake, when
he
reached the middle of the field, he picked one
medium corn that he felt satisfactory, and came
back to the teacher.
The teacher told him, "This time you bring back a
corn.... you look for one that is just nice, and you
have faith and believe this is the best one you
get.... this is marriage."

happier person!!

*yawn* guess wad...5th of april which is wednesday nite.. i did not sleep! yes.. i did post a blog here.. i went to bed at 5.30 a.m... turn here n there.. mind keeps spinning... turn up n down... but no sign of sleeping! look at the clock it's 7a.m... gosh! i really cant sleep n im stil so energetic! then half an hour later my bro ask me to send him to tuition.. ok so i send him to tuition at 6.30 ++a.m... go lin lin.. go to my fav 'smoking area' to burn cigg... (release stress!!!) then came home at 9 a.m... ok.. i stil cant sleep! so... tat's it... i did not sleep... grrr....

hmm... do every human knows tat 'patient has it's limit'.. but i bet not 'EVERYONE' knows bout it... hmmm... i guess.. it's time for me to let go everything n start wif my new life! yeah baby! i must do it =) i've been hurt over n over again n he juz couldn't realise all the pain he had been doin... *siGh* i've got no more patient anymore!! even tho im sad but well, wad shud i do? 1 after another when my heart haven cure here comes another thing which make me hurt? fCuk oFf man! don tink only u can do it.. i can do it as well =) gambateh mich!!! hahaaha! i've been lecture since... bla bla bla.. long time ago.. some even say i deserve it ='( don lidat la... n my koko say im very 'ngang keng' aiyoyo! so kolien ar me... hahaha! but well.. life must go on! n i must appreciate wad i haf now! smile to the world tat mich is a happy person today! hehehe

oh ya! guess how many hours i sleep last nite! wahahaha! i slept at 6 p.m (no worries not 6a.m) wahaha! n i woke up at 9 a.m!!! ( not 9p.m) wakakakaka! so how many hours i sleep huh?? 15 hours!!! hahaha to replace the previous nite.. cuz did not sleep! kekeke! but i stil feel so sleepy... mummy say sleep too much.. hiak hiak.. yeah i know... but after the long hours of sleeping.. i've got a lot a lot of dreams which make me wake my mind! im a new person today wif a lil bit diff attitude.. hey im not turning into some monster o wad la.. but im more to happy go lucky person.. hehehe he's not worth ur time! yeah!! i support tis phrase! hhaahaa! human never appreciate wad they had until it's gone... hmmm very meaningful rite? there's no use crying over a spilt milk... but i stil do.... *bluek!!!!!* who cares anyway... nobody care so live life to the fullest! =)

mltr - ghost of you

Summer's ended and without a trace
time goes by - while you remain
Funny how I thougt I walked on through
with my heart in one

[Chorus:]

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

How I tried to get you of my mind
but you return - all the time
I believed I could just let you go
like the fool I am

[Chorus:]

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Oh baby why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

[Release:]

I've been trying to release you
to get my feet back on the ground
Still I need my hope to hold on to
even if I know i should back away
It's just a part of me that I can't erase

[Chorus:]

Why do I still cry for you
dying to get close to you
Why do I still fear to face
the ghost of you

[Outro:]

Baby, baby why
Anyway I try I'm still reminded
(the ghost of you)
Anywhere I go I keep coliding with
(the ghost of you)
I've given up I just can't fight it
(the ghost of you)

Everytime I look away I see
the ghost of you

*it's a great song! u better listen*

|{smile to u.. ='( happy? not..}|



|{glad to be me! }|

















|{ actually i'm missing u badly... }|

miss ur fingerprint a lot....

ok.. the time now is 4.57 a.m n im stil here.. it's been hours ago for me to sleep but i juz couldn't sleep!! *siGh* my eyes r stil so big! cannot even close.. my mind keeps running.. tinking about too many things.. i wanna sleep!!! guess i really need sleeping pills since i couldn't sleep for many days.. oh man, wad's so so so wrong wif me... everyone is sleeping but im the only stupid idiot facing tis computer.. sOb..


guess.. i'll juz type some poem...

All over your house
There are tiny prints to be found
You don't have to look hard
For they are all around

They're on windows and doors
And on televisions too
All of which have been
Carefully polished by you

We remove them one by one
Memorizing the days that were fun
One day the fingerprints stop
Each and every one

Not fingerprint anywhere
In your house can be seen
All gone with the dusting
All you are left with is a dream

So cherish the little prints
Enjoy them while they last
For you can never replace them
When your loved one is no longer near…

i love you...

I carry your heart in mine
So I may feel it all the time
It will never be broken there
For I truly do care
And I know what you will say
Be kind to my heart in every way
It’s the only one I got
To me it means a lot
So I carry your heart in mine

I carry your heart in mine
To feel your love so warm, so fine
I am a better person now
So please don’t ask me how
I came to love you more
Than I ever did before
You are a special boyfriend
And I will love you even more in the end
So I carry your heart in mine

I carry your heart in mine
It is just a matter of time
You give me no other choice
Now i can truly say
I really do love you..

wad a day....

ok.. guess where m i rite now.... im not studying nor working n im here... library.. haha! funny rite... well cuz my meli dearie wanna study so here i m.. facing the screen in 'sEgi coLLeGe ' (ibms) doin ntg... *siGh* but i guess stay here is much more better than staying at home... agree?? hehehe! everyone around me is studying but im facing the stupid screen! the computer is so damn slow... n i've gotha download msn... wad a computer with ntg inside... grrr... guess tis is the only way i can do rite... lalalala...

hmmm.. again... same thing comes to my mind now... missing *someone* so much tat i keep on looking outside where i m now.. bet u all know tat 'special' one studies here as well... so whenever ppl walk pass i'll surely look outside... m i wasting my time? izit worth waiting?? im the one who make the decision but now im the one who is suffering here.. y m i like tis... *siGh* wad a love life im facing now... there's only one word i can say.. i really miss u... =( i really wish i can do smtg to make tis love better.. but wad can i really do?? anyone help me solve tis problem?? my mind keeps on running.. i duno which way to get out of tis life... it's really tiring... arghhh.. now im making myself tink about the letter AGAIN!!! i really hate it but i duno somehow my mouth say i wont tink about it anymore.. i must listen to wad u say tat wad i tink is not true.. wadever u say is true... but i really really cannot take it... i really really don wan it to be there... i don wish to face it everyday.. ='( plz cure my pain.... it's the deepest pain ever!! i stil tel myself... the day the 'thing' is there.. the day i wont wanna c ***... im juz too hurt.. there's ntg more i can say.. i really hope i can trust u... but if it's stil there.. i really cannot face u....

his 'bday is juz around the corner... i keep on tinking wad to buy... wad to make... i'll do anything, as long as ur happy.. i can do.. as long as i can afford to do it i 'SWEAR' i can do it for u... guess i'll hafta face the fact tat 'im really in love with u.. my dearest bear bee!'

it shouldn't be tis way... ='(

DO U KNOW IT'S VERY PAINFUL? CAN U FEEL MY PAIN?




wad's wrong wif my life now.. everything seems not well.. ='( it really hurts me a lot! it shouldn't be tis way, it shouldn't.. how cud u do tis to me?? can u feel my pain?? no.. no one knows how painful m i.. it's like a million of knives cut my heart into really really tiny pieces.. tat 'thing' really shouldn't appear on ur body! really shouldn't... i'll hafta face it everyday.. no!! no!! no!! i cannot take it... it's only a day.. how can u expect me to face it everyday.. juz 1 day.. 1 day.. i cannot take it..

tat's me.. smiling to u.. =) i'm juz wondering can we really c the 'love shape' sun? does it really exist in tis world? it's really beautiful.. i wish im one of the sun.. so tat i can be with the other sun.. together n forever because no one can replace the sun... Love begins with a smile, grows with a kiss, and ends with a teardrop.... someday, i wish i can be a bird... freedom... no controls... no quarrel..

a boring day...

*Sigh* working also tired... not working also tired.. wad shud i do??!! working everyday seems like wasting time + no time to rest.. wanna go out also tired... go out come back even more tired n no energy to work..now tat i've stop working i felt so sick!! stay at home do nothing.. everyday online.. day n nite.. go out everyday but dunno where to go.. sleep late late then in the morning tried to wake up late but owez wake up at 11.. wad a life.. wad can i do to make me feel better?? anyone help me.. plz.. if there's any interesting de things to do intro me alrite.. lalala... hmmm... ok lar... since i've got ntg to do so i upload some of my old pictures.. i'm gonna take card reader soon n upload the latest me (jong jong, i will de!!) hahaha!

iT's mY wOrld hEre..

surprised... hehehe... tat's me.. michelle bong~!! yeah!! im creating another blog after deleted my previous one cuz at the moment i've got nothing to do! *siGh* so might as well created a blog to dump all my rubbish here! =)