im sorry my love =*(

i tink i hurt my darling... yes i did.. i really did... im so not gonna forgive myself for wad i've done... ='( because of my selfish-ness n my action i really hurt him badly...sObs.. last nite somehow i ignore him when he's in pain.. now i feel so guilty sobs.. i know he's in pain but im juz too stubborn tat i didn't even care bout him.. i cover myself with blanket from head to toe trying to ignore him.. i didn't meant to hurt u darling.. plz don shed tears... ='( i know tat he's in pain i couldn't bare to c him in pain.. i gif up n rub his back... suddenly saw tears in his eye.. the moment i saw his eye filled wif tears, my heart dropped! im juz so so sorry cuz i did not bother bout u.. i knew i couldn't take it.. i knew i wouldn't bare to c u in pain.. i knew it.. tat's y i rub ur back.. even tho i did concern bout u, i did care bout u, i did rub ur back knowing ur in pain but all those doesn't matter anymore.. i made u sad.. ur trying to hide ur sadness to urself.. i can feel it.. i really can.. i duno who can i tok to.. i duno who can i express all these sadness n guilty-ness in me.. im so sorry darling.. i really really m...

today is the 1st day u go to work.. i couldn't sleep the whole nite... u hafta wake up early than usual.. u hafta come home late.. everytime when i tink bout u wanna go work, my heart is really pain.. i owez ask u to go back kch but u don wan.. i really don tink tis kinda life suits u.. u don belong here.. u don belong to tis kinda suffering world.. y u wanna do tis? today in the office, the whole day i couldn't concentrate on wadever i do.. my mind keeps tinking bout u.. the moment i steps into my office, i wonder, where r u now? haf u reach ur working place? i wanna cal u but i scare tat u cant answer the phone.. at 12.40 u called me but my phone is not beside me tat's y i did not answer.. when i c my phone it's already 1.25.. i tried to cal u back but no one answer.. my heart's really crying.. wondering wad is happening.. how com u cal.. wanna ask u, r u tired? can u get use to the new working place? have u eaten ur lunch? all sorts of question comes out from my mind...... im so mad at myself tat i did not answer the dame phone! sobs... now im alone in the room waiting for u to come back.. i really mis u a lot darling.. i couldn't even miss c-ing u a second..
patiently waiting for u home.. love u lots... im sorry my beloved darling.........